"All my friends think that I'm gone, but I swear, I swear I'm not."

One fear that has slowly crept up on me over the past several years is the fear of never being taken seriously.

Let's face it. I joke around way too much. I'm inappropriate at the WORST times. I'm immature as fuck, so I fall for immature guys. And sex sometimes runs my life.

It's nice to be able to make people laugh by climbing things and being a bitch to guys at the bar just because I can... but damn.

It miiiight be because I don't take myself too seriously.

Actually, I don't take myself seriously at all.

Is this the root of all of my self esteem issues?

Holy shit I think I've hit the mother load of insecurities.

I've found the mama insecurity.

It's what makes me never back out of a dare, talk way too openly about sex and cry over the fact that when people are bored with me, they move on.

But hey, I guess at least I make people laugh.

Fuck my ass is going numb from sitting around and doing nothing.