It seems as though the main theme in my life is how much people's stupidity astounds me.
You would think at this point I wouldn't be surprised at all anymore.
Yet, I continue to stare, open mouthed as rubber-neckers cause congestion on highways and celebrity coke addicts pop out babies and drop them on floors.
Stupidity is also the leading cause of my dissatisfaction with the dating pool.
Can't I go out at least once without having to converse with a drunken, glossy-eyed nineteen year old that really only cares about hockey?
Where are the literate, inquisitive and artistic?
They're replaced with the sports fanatic, beer chugger and video game maverick.

The one thing that makes me laugh more often than arrogance, bad drivers and teenage angst is when I meet people who are in love.

I don't apologize for any offense this may bring; I'm just a bitter bitch trying to take everyone around me down with me. Right?

Not everyone in love are complete idiots.
It's the people who love someone when they're really just willing to give up on living.
They make sacrifices they really don't have to make but do anyway because they want to be a fucking martyr.

"I really wanted to go to Delaware for grad school, but since Jamie is staying in New York, I'm going to start looking into local programs. There are more job opportunities for Jamie here, so it's really just the best decision."

Translation: "Look how beautiful our love is. I'm sacrificing my happiness for their's."

Interpretation: "Wow. You're a tool."

Do what you want, and fuck an intangible feeling that you may wake up not feeling tomorrow.
I can't fully respect people who put all of their faith and trust in something that changes as often as hygiene enthusiasts change their underwear.
How about fully trusting yourself and your capabilities?
No one needs to sell themselves short for a bullshit relationship.

Oh, it's looking like you'll get married?
That's cool because you'll end up divorced anyway at the rate divorces are going at these days.
- 4 out of 10 first time marriages will end in divorce.
- In the U.S. there are approximately 2.4 mil marriages a year and 1.2 mil divorces a year.

Still convinced love will concur all?
How about the effects of outside factors like temptation?
- 20% of all married men have had extra marital affairs, and 16% of all married women have strayed from their marriages.

Those numbers should be more like... zero.

While love is laughable, I don't doubt it exists. I doubt the faith that so many put in love.
Just don't be idiots and do whatever the fuck you want as long as it doesn't hurt anyone.
Don't let someone hold you back from what you really want out of life.

I find myself in a worthless world of false ambition.
These people have abstract dreams, but hardly any of them will ever live them.
It warms my heart that most aspirations are unattainable.
Dreams stay dreams. And that's the way it should be.
If reality were perfection, we'd have nothing to aspire to be.
Our dream-lifestyles would be torn to shit with our pessimism and consistently fucked up economy.
Eventually we'd find flaws within the perfection because it's human nature to be unhappy- with everything.

Will I accomplish my dreams? Probably not.
And I wouldn't want to anyway.
I'm eventually disgusted with most things about my life and I wouldn't want to be disgusted with being a space cowgirl with a hit country single on Mars.
I'd rather just leave that to a good night's sleep after several rum & coke's.

Spending a weekend training with empathetic peer crisis counselors has changed my outlook on people.
Not everyone sucks...


...but the majority of people do.

The biggest disappointment of today is the decrease in value of communication.
Everything is said electronically.
People confront one another via Instant Messages, social networking sites, e-mail and texts.

To those people that choose these methods as confronting methods-
what the hell is wrong with you?

Since when was it okay to apologize for something you did to hurt someone through a Facebook message?
Since when was it okay to spell check your break up with someone?
And since when was it okay to tell someone that you can no longer be their friend in a window that will be exed out of if their computer restarts?


Uhhh... oh right. This all started to be okay ever since the fucking internet ruined the whole fucking world.
However, I can't sit here and type about this without addressing the issue of a person's character in this equation.

Is it your intelligence that prevented you from thinking clearly before you could pick up a phone or take a breath and communicate effectively?
I highly doubt it, you lazy-ass bastards.
It's your blatant cowardice.

The people that would never have spoken up about something before are now attacking people as they hide behind their computers and unlimited text messaging fees on their Verizon network.

If anyone ever fucking texts me an apology again, I am filling their inbox everyday with the same message:

Hey, fucko. Can you hear me now?
Good.

Some days, I wish I were able to be as religious as I was before college.

However, as I am beginning to adapt and adjust to my environment with more ease, it has become apparent to me how unfitting a devout Catholic lifestyle would be for my life right now.

It's laughable to justify not practicing a religion because it's inconvenient, but it's the God's honest truth.

Maybe this yearning to be pious is not from a passion for spirituality, but more from a longing to feel deeply connected to a being that's existence can't even be proved; its existence is only felt.

I don't feel that existence.
I don't feel looked out for and I sure as hell don't think that a good person who believes in a different faith will suffer and burn in eternal flame.

I don't agree with most of the teachings and practices of the Catholic church.
It was founded with blood money.
To this day, the church is ruled over by a PERSON that is seen as almost divine- a PERSON that is supposedly the closest human to God himself.

Why is this person so much better than the rest of us?
Aren't we all supposed to feel close to God?
And isn't viewing a human as divine AGAINST the religion?

Tonight's theme:
- Daylight savings time
- & im-fucking-pressive hypocrisy

(See blog posted January 29th.)